I still Dream..

girll
I can't be there with you,
but I can dream.
my love, flows like a stream
continuous out-pour
right down to my core.
watch me work my trickery
like you were my majesty.
have you under a spell
but you cant tell...

Up against the cherry tree
watch me count, down from three
shawty I just wanna spend some quiet time
look up in the stars girl you make them shine
your bout as pretty as a skyline
turn the music up girl we'll be fine.
baby , let me get to know you
take my time to show you.
dont tell anybody what we do.

take me to another place
to another place where i'll be
face to face just you and me.


make the most of tonight
let me show you what is right.

Aprilsveryown <3 x and o

I screwed man

I fucked up, this shits wrecked
I  dunno why I miss you,
you screwed me over
I was the fool
our times were magic, but you put that aside and broke me
you keep your head up high with your title of number 1
you barely won, but yeah you know your the best
I was just a pawn to you,
belittled me, toke a players love..
he ain't got no love for this game
I'm out for a while now, Benched myself for the next 2 seasons.
you broke that shit, it takes time to heal.
its amazing i thought what we had was real.
should've gone back to my ways..
just a player with those street girls ,
making deals.
that shit was real fun.
but us?
you made me work for what we had
working so hard for our love
sweating from the eyes girl.
but now your gone,
not like I needed you,
I needed someone like you , at least I thought I knew what you were like..
scares are hidden from ones like you,
you gonna keep on hurtin'?
fine by me,
be a bitch
choke on dick.
Give my love to the hates x and o
player got played
Aprilzveryownxo <3

You Said Either Way I Could Be A Star, I Would Go So Far

A Good friend asked me a though provoking question,
The question itself is irrelevant,
but I brings me to think about the past 2 months,
how have I grown as a person?
am I too vain? self centered?
Man , I'm Still Aprilz? right?
Will my friends even let me know?
I think i gotta revisit the past, but how?
different alure in the air, means different people gonna stare
Different girl this time, I sure as hell regret the last one,
All that time I was doing so well, being cautious
Finally thought I found the real her.
Dam Aprilz i regret that shit,
I tell myself YOLO
but really? that was 4 months I'll never get back,
So many girls, want a chance, I'm no god,
I'm not better than them, I just think one of us will get hurt.
but you chose her Aprilz?
and she screwed you ? does that mean your judgements off?
you said some stuff mann, stuff that you were saving for that special one.
now? I hate to say this shit but, because of one girl like that,
I might not say that word again,
even if they deserve it.
Aprilzveryownxo
<3

I just been playing, didn't realise I was winning

Time to take it?
god never gives us challenges we can't handle.
never regret something that made you smile?
I've thought about this so much,
I put it off,
I thought shit man, you've played her.
when really all I had to do was look at my first blog and realise.
good, genuine, nice, legit girls are hard to find, and if I ruin this
with a shallow stripper from the south.
I wont get another chance, yeah girl word of mouth.
So whats next Aprilz?
Try your best, make shit work
hand on chest, we'll be happy again?
you gotta path and so do I.
were perfect for each other yo.
work your magic?
girl thats tragic,
be you , yeah girl be you
Take a deep breath, no need to panic
Lips so French, ass so Spanish
You don’t really like attention, I don’t know if she gon manage out here
But she got me all up in my zone
Said she like the view I got in this place
Shit I did all of that on my own
Oh yeah

Aprilzveryown xo
<3

When a good thing goes bad its not the end of the world , its just the of a world that you had with one girl

Man,
I gotta find myself
never been so lost,
Finally, gotta good girl like you, in my arms.
But now I like shirley? , or we just mates
dayum aprilz, you making work for yourself.
My hearts playing games.

Aprilzveryown xo
<3

This Is Really One Of My Dumbest Flows Ever

wow girl
shit start changing
i'm doing all the things I promised I wouldn't do.
Why? It's all in my mind
This ain't temptation
and I'm not moving on?
so what do we call it?
changing lanes?
not making much progress.
but wow , what we had was unforgettable
thats probably why i dont want to hurt you.
At first I needed you;
I wanted you;
I was looking foward to April
now I'm living for today,
good for me? , yeah it is
you know what they say YOLO
so I ain't gonna wait for us.
It's not you, your worth it.
but I gotta get on with my life.
and you gotta take a step out of mine.
you gotta go back to an option
not a priority
I'll be your option as well.
its what we have to do.
Wow this has been a ride, in my head.
every blog was a different thought,
now I'm done?
hopefully you understand.
I can't leave you in the dark or it will makes things worse.
we needa talk ...
I don't know where to start.
I know I'm going to regret letting you go..
but at the end of the day YOLO.
7 months? a long time to wait
4da1 ?
I'm not sure about that.
if were to be than things will work out later.
But I am a gentleman, shits gotta be legit
by the book, livin' by my code.
I gotta give you right, gotta be a man,
call you up, got you on that speed dial with a loveheart after your name.
gotta change somethings yeah girl, its off.
back to the phonebook,
no more hearts.
But where will I start?
when I hear your voice
I get weezy , butterflys? Nerves?
cos it ain't love.
women I console, no bitches love
your a good one, but I've had bad ones
I used to beileve in love.
Now?..
Yeah, I got love for this game, rollercoaster yeah girl. the trick is to cope with the drop
or at least put on a front, you don't know who's watching.
1 love, 1 game, 1 me. 1 girl? ahhh .
YOLO
Aprils very ownxo <3

The Real Her

Girl..
things will change
dam those haters
on the road to riches
they just a speed bump
eastward fellas find yourself
sorry 4 the wait
Aprilz very own <3
xo

Don't Make It Too Easy Girl , Dont Take It Too Fast

Things going well, doin my own
not always freakin to check my phone.

were still close i feel feel it girl
i just ain't on a quest for no pearl

who knows what december will bring?
probably gonna end with a sting

thats alright,
live n learn.

Aprilz very own <3

In My Zone

You say you wanna talk
thought you were gonna walk

about our direction?
should i take a reflection?
on all the good times
being together was once a crime

I can tell you don't want it,
but you need it

you wanna just be friends
but how long you gonna keep telling yourself that?

makes me wonder sometimes..

do i ever cross your mind?
or do you tell yourself your fine?

they say the first love is the sweestest
but that first cut is the deepest.

your worried about what I think.
but when i'm with you I dont blink

<3
Aprils very ownxo

I took a chance with my heart; and i feel it taking over

Memories can be your best friend
but the mixed with the present is one bad blend.
Id keep my distance
to keep my head

in my head is where the pain is
cos your all through my brain
like a cancer from the past
aint got no answer..

whats my plan?
play this hand?
go for bust
turn this shit to rust?

maybe i should just jump
this aint the same old speed bump
i'm at my lowest, this is a slump

gotta pick back up ,
get in this game

I'm changing lane
<3
Aprilz very own xo

Cos When I'm Not Around ; I'll Still Be There Spirit

Feels like i'm alright
coke instead of sprite
tryna find the light
without your love its just black and white
without your kiss, ive lost all sight
gonna find my way, gotta make it right
if you read this ;
you might laugh at me
or fall for me
but I cant take that risk,
had one too many hearts broken
before we had even spoken.
Aprils very own <3

damn really? even rosemary? even leanne seely?

times are hard without your touch;
you say that your nothing?
but how do i think about nothing all the time?
times are hard for a player in this game
touch n go, no time to bench
feels like some "dear john" shit we got goin on here
good, genuine and kind girls are hard to find
and harder to keep
tell me who did i leave behind?
Aprils very own <3

happy birthday drizzy

When She Moves ; The Time Doesn't

Why is it that the ones you need so close
are so far away?
do i need closure ? because i need you close?
ice cream conversation , they all want the scoop.
April seems so far away, because it is,
when i'm with you, will things even be the same?
time changes everything, even a fool knows that
do i act the fool?
at least it made you laugh
BR Aprils very own
<3